Bad Day

Today, I am not having a good day.  I an sad, mad, frustrated, confused, just plain restless and irritable.  There are just a lot of things going on in my life right now, some good, some bad.  Here are a few that are worrying me ....

1. Fianacial aid was denied for school on first attempt.  I have had my forms revised and have no idea if I will get any financial aid.  If not, I have to get a student loan. I may just be stupid, but I have no idea how to even go about getting a student loan.  Fianacial aid advisors says she will help, but I have my doubts as she was not very eager to help me revise my forms.

2.  If I find the money, I start my respiratory therapy classes on August 23.  I am scared to death!

3.  My husband and I can't seem to get along for very long at all.  I have no idea what is going to happen at this point.  Neither of us is very happy at this moment, but we have been here before.  Just trying to figure it out.

On days like this, I think.  A lot.  I think about things that are probably a bit nonsensical to everyone else. 

Today i thought of some sayings and truthes......

1. "It has to get worse before it can get better" - What does this mean?  What if you can't handle the worse to make it to the better?  Why does it have to get worse? Why can't it just get better?

2. There is this inevitable truth that people get better before they die.  So what does the previous saying mean to someone who is terminally ill?  Many very sick people take a turn for the better (giving false hope to many) before they die.  If it has to get worse before it gets better, why do they want to endure the worse just for death to follow the better?  I also wonder if these people know that when they take this turn for the better that they will die soon?

3. "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade"  ....  well this is only gonna work if life decides to NOT leave you so broke you cant buy sugar.  I guess life could give you some bees to go with your lemons, but you would probably die from bee stings before the bees even make the honey to sweeten the lemonade.  This saying doesnt really make any sense at all.

ANYWAY....I am going to say good night for now.  I am tired and probably just need to go to bed.

Maybe tomorrow will be better and I can post something a lil less negative.

WOW!

So, I hope everyone had a great Christmas!  My Christmas was good, busy but good. There are some really exciting things coming up.

1. My sister in law will deliver another precious baby boy on 1/3/12.  Because of the complications she had before with preeclampsia and c-section, she will have another c-section. His name will be Simon!

2. On Jan 5, I have to go buy all my books for school and tie up any loose ends.  Classes start Jan 9. I am scared to death, but I have some good support and am feeling good about it.

With the new year coming, I have made my resolutions!

1. This is really a resolution from last year. I did not break this resolution, I am just vowing to continue it and kick it up a notch!  I will continue on my journey of health and fitness.  When I lost my job back in September I got a lil lazy and skipped out on my workouts for a month.  During that time, I found a few of my lost pounds. :(  I realized that for me, this is really a lifetime journey. I guess my genetics will not allow me to cheat on my diet and exercise with out reversing my progress.  So I'm kicking it up a notch to shed the extra pounds I found and then continue to a lifetime of health and fitness.

2.  I am tired of being broke. I am tired of my bills being behind. I resolve in the new year to save as much money as I can. I resolve to be sure all bills are caught up and paid on time.  It will help relieve some stress as I start school and need to focus on my studies. 

3. I resolve to be happy. What ever it takes.  I will not be taken advantage of, walked on, lied to, or treated badly by ANYONE. Not myself, not my husband, not my family, not my friends.  I am not saying that any of these people spacifically had done these things. I have had a tough couple of years with relationships with all of these people, some by my own fault, some not.  I love them all and do not want to dissolve any retationships, but I will be happy whatever it takes.

4. I resolve to start my classes at ECC and do the best I can, I will not give up. I will become a Respiratory Therapist no matter what. I will not let anyone or anything get in the way of my education.  I have floated though long enough being broke and working dead end jobs.  I will do that no longer. I will have a career!


Well, I guess that is about all I got for now.  I hope you all have a Happy and Safe New Year!

It's Official!

I am a college student! I went to my New Student Orientation and Pre-Registration at Edgecombe Community College tonight! I was so nervous and still am. It has been so long since I have been in school. Starting college again at 32 is strange to me. I am only taking 2 classes this first semester. Turns out that a lot of the classes I took at Nash Community College years ago are still valid and put me ahead of the game with only 5 classes that I need other than the actual respiratory classes.

Well this was a pretty short blog but I'm sure they will get longer and more exciting as this college adventure begins.

Hey Y'all, I got a blog!

I'm not sure why I wanted to start a blog other than my cousin has a blog and I enjoy reading hers. She lives out of town and it makes keeping up on what's going on much easier.  I also see that it is an awesome way to keep a bit of a timeline to look back and see what you have done, been through, or accomplished.

I guess now is as good a time as any to start this blog as there are some exciting changes happening in my life. Here are a few just to get the ball rolling...

1. I was fired from my job at CenturyLink on September 26. I am not ashamed, nor do I feel bad about losing my job. I feel I did my job to the best of my ability by my moral standards.  I was essentially fired for not making my sales quota. Could I have made my sales quota?....yes.....if I added things you did not ask for on your account, or talk you into some product you don't really want, need or can afford.   As soon as I knew my job was in jeopardy I decided that I needed a plan for the future as I did not want to live the CenturyLink life any longer. 

2. The plan for the future?  College!  After a lot of stress and worry about how to pay for school, my financial aid for the Spring semester came through and I will start classes at Edgecombe Community College in January. Preregistration is Monday....I am scared but excited!  If all goes well, I will start Respiratory Therapy classes in the fall.

Well, that is about all I have today AND it is time to take a very good smellin' Shrimp and Crab Lasagna out of the oven!